Snow

Snow is a reality here in Michigan. There are times I love it and yes there have been times where it has caused me a great deal of stress because of driving in bad conditions. In fact the fear of driving in the winter used to paralyze me. I would watch weather forecasts with dred fearing future driving times on bad roads. I remember gripping the steering wheel praying-shaking even as our sons talked in the background..."shhhh!" I would say "Mommy is trying to drive on the bad roads"...well..I am very happy to say that no longer does the snow move me other then awe in it's beauty. God had really helped me through this fear. Even in the ice I just know I will be safe. There was one really bad February in 2008 when Daniel was in a play way over on the other side of town. The director would have rehearsal in the blizzard even when everything else was closed but we made it-driving very slow but we made it and when I drove I drove totally relaxed knowing I would get home safe. The dred and fear tries to come back...usually after the first drive I am fine...next week I am going with my husband to Ohio for 5 days. Who knows how the road will be for us and then there is the boys here at home who will be dealing with snow here with the trips taking Emma to the adult day care plus one son going back and forth to school...I must admit that in getting ready I have had to push back that dred feeling. It is good to remind myself just how far I have come with snow....